Today, I’m proud of having pushed and challenged myself way above my limits, physically and mentally through yoga.
I had planned to go to two hot yoga classes for the today, just to challenge myself. I had been going everyday for the past week and I felt ready for the challenge. Imagining myself after the two hours yoga set was so much easier than actually doing the two hours of hot yoga.
I first took the usual CoreYoga class (Medium level of 1.5) and had difficulties physically keeping up with the ab workouts, constant downdog streches and the poses in general. I was sweating buckets by the end and physically shaking, especially in the legs. Halfway through the class, as my legs shook from being in crescent lunge, I thought to myself, “I should leave it at this for today. I don’t need to challenge myself that much today. I got time.“ Even mentally, I was defeated.
But as I left the class and sat alone in the locker room, I put my thoughts in order and I felt so weak to have given up so easily. I cast all the negative thoughts away in that locker room and I mentally prepared myself for the next class with postive thoughts that I can do it. Even with the preparation, I couldn’t help but feel a bit insecure because I was the only person taking these two classes in a row, besides the teacher, of course. I also felt this way because I’m still a novice in hot yoga, only have a week of straight practice. But I butted those thoughts out as the class began and I am so glad that I forced myself to open this opportunity.
The second class was hard, don’t get me wrong, but my breathing and my strong thoughts got me through the class smoother than I had thought that I could do. The class felt so short actually. But it was still the same hour! I couldn’t believe when I was in final shavasna and I felt a strange calm and stillness within my body and my mind. Even after the class, I felt shaky, but not weak; I felt even stronger.
And I learned, once again, that pushing yourself way past your limits can be the best thing that you can do to yourself in any aspect of life. Today, that was through hot yoga.